Happy Birthday!

Today is my Man's Bday. He's 46 today. Masih hensem dan gagah org nye hahahaha!
Happy Bday Sayang.
Semoga Allah beri kesihatan yg baik, so that u boleh terus beramal kepada Nya dan bermuamalat dgn sebaik2 nya sesama makhluk.
Semoga Allah panjang kan umur u (dan me) semoga lebih byk pahala dan kebaikan yg boleh u buat. Serta lebih byk masa kita boleh berkasih sayang...menjaga dan memberi kasih sayang pada anak2 dan keluarga unconditionally. Amin.

30th Aug was my bday. 33rd.
Most women don't share their age with others but not me.
Am proud to be 33. Sebenarnye ingatkan tahun ni dah 34, tersilap kira...hehehe.
I love being in 30s sbb I feel better. Better than when I was in 20s. in my 20s I had a messy life. I didn't have my own stand, no objective in doing anything... I simply pleased people around me.
When I reached 30, things started to change. I have set my career journey according to what I want in future. I stop changing jobs just because I had enough with the existing job or I want a higher pay. I started to focus. And give myself the room to experience the good and the bad things fr one company, give myself the opportunity to learn and to do mistakes. So that I understand and improve myself on how to tackle things differently.
When I reached 30, I learnt one thing that is very important. Saying NO and YES to the right things; based on what I need and what people need. I slowly stopped to pleased people blindly. I have also managed to draw lines when trusting and loving anyone.
I know what I want for me. That was an achievement! :D. That is why i love being 33. Not sure what will I feel when I reach 40..??? Maybe tak sama kot...
But anyway, I guess to feel good about ourselves is easy. Do the right things... and do things right. Selagi ada kudrat Allah pinjam kan, kita usaha supaya kita boleh achieve perkara2 baik yg kita dah set and target. Bila kita berjaya achieve segala2nya, tak kisah umur kita brape, mesti kita bangga dgn diri kita...kan?

2nd Wed Anniversary!

23rd Aug 2010- Happy 2nd Wedding Anniversary to DH and myself!
Bila bgtahu mama, its our 2nd anny, mama kata”baru 2 tahun??? Mcm dah bertahun2 je korang ni dah kawen” hehehe…
Celebrations? Takde pun. We both cuti, coz nak hantar anakanda tercinta yg high maintenance tu jumpa dermatologist. Plan nye lepas appointment tu, terus hantar bibik & sikecik balik, then kitorg pegi beli handbag yg DH janji nak hadiahkan. Then I want to buy some baju for myself yg semakin mengembang ni. I don’t have anything on that day physically as a present for DH, not even a card (terukkan?). So I planned to spend a good dinner to celebrate. Guess what? Harapan indah tu semua musnah sbb appointment abes dah pukul 5, dgn traffic jam semua, we arrived home at 6:30. Tp I was so surprised to see a bouquet of fresh lilies & roses depan pintu rumah. Bouquet paling besar dlm sejarah yg pernah di terima.
Ended up berbuka kat rumah, tapau nasi goring ayam. I asked DH whether he wanted to go out lepas maghrib, dua2 pun dah kepenatan. Wpun rasa bersalah sbb tkde apa2 pun I prepared for him on the special day, tp he got the hint already yg I have ordered something special for him that can only be delivered to him a week before raya. I know he’ll love it so much.
Hmmm last two years, on our wedding day … I had lots of questions in my head. Fear and worried of uncertainties. But was praying for things to turn out to be better. The only reason I wanted to marry him was HIM. Coz he is the best man I never imagine I’ll meet. Coz I love him unconditionally and I know he’ll make me happy for the rest of my life. Because of that, I ignore the fact that the other factors were not good to my decision (to marry him). Instead of concern at the possibilities I’ll be facing hard time handling his circle, I just shut the worries off, just be myself and leave it to The Creator. Keep praying asking for His blessings so that they will look at me for who I am. Lihat guna mata hati …
Alhamdulillah, dah 2 tahun berlalu… takde apa yg lebih membahagiakan dari perkahwinan ini. Allah permudahkan segala2nya utk semua.
Semoga kasih sayang ini akan lebih kuat dari ke hari. Amin.

Segala Pujian Tertinggi bagi Allah yg Maha Memberi dan Mengasihi.

I got the letter on Friday- got the promotion.
Alhamdulillah.
Sangat terharu sbb Allah beri juga rezeki ni pd hamba Nya yg selalu lalai dan degil ni.
Terima Kasih Allah.
Semoga dekat hati ini dgn Mu.
Semoga slowly hamba Mu ini akan menjadi lebih baik setiap hari.
Semoga setiap udara Mu yg ku sedut akan membuang segala yg negative dlm diri ini.
Semoga setiap denyutan nadi yg Kau pinjamkan ini akan menarik segala yg positive disekelilingku ke dlm hati dan berkesan ke setiap tindakan ku.
Amin.

Pregnant Mom.

Dah mula rasa penat.

10 weeks pregnant and having a 13mth toddler around yg baru pandai jalan.

Plus bekerja dgn sepenuh hati.

Memang penat.

Semalam Humairah demam plak. Wahhh every 2 hrs terjaga, monitor body temp and memujuk dia yg asyik terkejut and nangis.

Peluk dia. Selagi tak dengar suara ibu ni, dia akan keep merengek. So mmg kena be beside her to comfort her.

Nasib baik DH mmg superdad. Dialah yg akan buat susu, pegi amik apa2 yg diperlukan; kain lap, gayung and air utk spongekan Humairah. Amik minyak angin, urut perut and tapak kaki and everything. Ibu hanya perlu berada beside Humairah.

Memang agak mencabar.

Am still breastfeeding.
Tapi si kecik tu bukan nya nak minum sangat. Melekap hanya utk bermanja2 atau main peekaboo dgn ibu. Dia sangat suka bergurau.
Humairah dah berjalan satu rumah. Mana2 pintu bilik tak tutup, dia akan explore bilik tu. Kalau abah kat dlm bilik nak solat, dia akan cari abah dlm bilik...buat2 terkejut then lari cari ibu kat luar.
Kalau sliding door tak tutup, dia akan lepak kat balcony.
Favorite spot, duduk atas coffee table. Dia akan panjat coffee table dan berdiri atas tu...then panjat pulak sofa yg bersebelahan dgn coffe table, then turun kat coffee table semula and duduk situ for a while.
Dah boring dia akan pegi kat TV and swith off. then on kan semula...
So bayangkan, bila ibu & abah di rumah, memang kami terpaksa bekerja sama melayan kerenah Humairah.
Seronok dan penat.

Last Saturday, pegi check up. At last nampak juga si Peanut#2. Comel kaki dia goyang2. Hehehe...bahagia sgt rasanya. DH nampak confident dgn apa yg dia nampak kat ultrasound tu. Tak mcm 1st time dia tgk Humairah masa dlm perut. Doc tunjuk "ni baby...ni kepala, ni kaki dia..." dia angguk2 tp mmg confirm dia tak nampak apa2...hehehe.

My EDD is 11th Feb 2011...11022011. Nice number haa? Humairah dulu...20062009. cantek gak.

Hopefully 2nd pregnancy berjalan lancar. So far masih lagi morning sickness. Tp semangat kena kuat. Menahan segala makanan yg dah masuk...try as much possible tahan dr muntah. Kalau tak leceh, nak kena isi perut lagi.

Office ada mcm2 hal.
Major restructuring-Again-.
Tp ni mmg major lah sbb Division kitorg akan pupus. All of us will be absorbed to other divisions. My boss dah head a new Division.
I have a new boss now.
Most prob, once the new structure confirmed, my team will get a new scope of work (costing)on top of the current one (accounting & operations). Basically accounting & operations will no longer be big as now coz the ppl (team) we manage will be smaller and very focus...yeay! Budget diorg pun tak besar except for CAPEX. Double yeay! My new boss pun new...he's fr competitor. Tp dia mmg well known in the industry... so that's an advantage for me. Boss dulu pun well known juga, tp when i served him, jarang dpt hv session dgn dia sbb dia head of Division. He has many departments to look after. Now my new boss mmg focus buat costing and accounting, so mmg hari2 he'll sit down and work with me.
Baru rasa ada arah tujuan hehehe.
Tiba2 smlm ada offer, to join diff division.
A nice VP had a chit chat with me if I want to join her.
Doing about the same function I am doing now...plus Planning.
An option to explore.
Bila dah keadaan mcm ni, tiba2 teringat plak pasal interview hari tu...ntah bila nak kluar result ntah.
Bila dah ada major restructuring ni, bila Division ni dah nak pupus ni, diorg nak ke promotekan kitorg? Tp when I raised tat issue masa borak2 dgn VP tu dia ckp promotion interview tu diorg rate based on individual performance, nothing to do with the divisional performance. Lagipun, division ni nak kena split bukan sbb performance tak bagus, tp sbb company direction...
and she said, promotion result ari tu akan kluar after the structure punye announcement.
Owhhh ok lah tu...
Aku, kalau dapat of course lah happy... means ada salary increament...then at least aku tahu keje keras aku ada hasil....alhamdulillah.
Kalau tak dapat, means belum rezeki aku lagi... kena lipat ganda usaha lah.
InsyaAllah, kalau dah rezeki, Allah dah tulis...tak dpt tahun ni, tahun lain mesti dapat. AMIN.

Sorry, coz I smell like my late grandma.

Bau minyak cap kapak!!!
Dah 2 hari tertinggal tiger balm (ehsan Malinda my neighbour @ ofc) kat rumah.
Si kecik tu suka sangat selongkar bag ofc, keluarkan semua brg then masuk kan semula...i guess dua hari lepas tak masuk kan balik tiger balm dlm bag.
So hari ni sbb dah pening sgt, mintak sikit Kak Niza punye minyak cap kapak.
Takde org lain yg aku akan ingat bila bau minyak cap kapak ni.... arwah uwan lah org nye.

Nampaknye, kalau Allah izinkan, selama 7 bulan lebih lagi, perfume akan jimat kerana perfume telah pun digantikan dgn minyak angin. Can smell something already???

Hahaha... yes, Humairah nak dpt adik, insyaAllah.

Now baru 8 nak masuk 9th week. Tp masa 6th week, did ultrasound tp tak nampak apa2.
Esok appointment dgn Doc Rahman. Harap2 peanut #2 dah besar sikit, and tak main nyorok2 dah dgn ibu. I want to see u dear. The 1st sight always a special moment to me.

Rata2 ramai yg terkejut monkey bila tau I am expecting. Most of them were like "AGAIN????" or "I tot u just had 1???" hahahhaa.... What can I say?.... Alhamdulillah... Ini Rezeki Allah bagi.

Dulu I tot I just want 1. No specific reason, I just want to have 1... kalau org kata tak takut sunyi ke kalau dah tua...? I guess, kalau anak ramai pun, kalau Allah takdirkan most of the time anak2 tak jenguk kita, akan sunyi juga nanti... and for me, I am not worry about DH tak agree anak sorang je...sbb we have 4 actually. We have Qiellah, Hazim and Hanis plus little Humairah. Like I said, kalau anak2 4 org ni nanti dah besar, dah ada life sendiri... diorg rajin jenguk kitorg Alhamdulillah, tak lah sunyi...tp kalau ada 4 pon, tp semua Allah takdirkan mmg takde masa nak jenguk kitorg, sunyi jugak nanti.... so yg penting skrg ni doa je banyak2 supaya anak2 kita tu sentiasa ingat kat kita, sentiasa nak dekat dgn kita AMIN.

Dulu mmglah rasa Humairah dah cukup. Tp lepas DH gave a very strong fact, aku pun akur utk peanut #2. DH ckp, kesian kat Humairah. She'll be lonely... kakak2 and abg dia semua dah besar. The tendency for her to spoil is very big. Kalau dah anak sorang kan? Semua perhatian pd dia... kakak, abg , kazen, aunties, uncles, atuks, neneks and semua bg attention kat dia.... and she herself takkan faham erti sharing.

Since then, semuanya berubah. 100% agree dgn DH. Lepas tu bila fikir2, semua ni Allah dah tetapkan. Kalau plan nak 1 je, tp Allah dah tulis dulu 8, 8 jugak jadi nye...hehehe. And kalau plan nak 4 or 5, tp kalau Allah dah tulis takde dah....nak buat mcm mana kan? Redha sahaja dgn Qada' dan Qadar...sbb Allah lebih tahu apa yg terbaik utk hamba Nya. Kita hanya perlu lead this life dgn cara yg betul dan terbaik yg kita mampu.

So Peanut no#2, ibu tak sabar nk tgk awk esok. For the past 8 weeks, ibu sentiasa rasa nak demam and muntah hijau hari2. Nasib baik ibu dapat boss baru kat office, so ibu kena jadi sgt strong utk paksa diri pegi office setiap hari. Ibu harap semangat ibu nak pegi keje yg kuat tahap dewa ni awak warisi...so bila awk lahir dan membesar, awak akan jadi kuat semangat dan rajin mcm ibu (sekarang lah...). Walaupun sakit and lembik, ibu tetap pegi ofc... hehehe...semata2 tanak menjadikan pregnancy sbg reason utk MC which will create a bad perception towards me. Sbb ibu cari rezeki dgn kerja ini...semuanya perlu positive... supaya rezeki kita ni diredhai Allah. AMIN.

Ok lah, I'll see u tomorrow darling..!

Petua Utk Pregnant (bg mereka yg bermasalah).

Hari Jumaat ni kena perbanyakkan amalan.
Sharing info pun kira amalan.

Ni bukan petua nenek kebayan.
Just nak share mcm mana aku boleh conceived setelah bertahun2 gagal , setelah dua kali operations and beratus2 kali appointment dgn gynea(s).
Terpanggil nak share sbb I always share this with friends yg bertanya...and Alhamdulillah, one of them dah conceived, I guess dah deliver pun.

Mcm ni...
Key dia is....Percaya dgn sungguh2, yg Allah Maha Besar; Maha Berkuasa, hanya Dia tempat kita meminta dan memohon perlindungan. Dia yg menentukan segala2nya tentang kita.
Amalan nya... Allah sudah beritahu, dalam bulan Ramadhan ada satu malam dalam 10 malam terakhir, yg Allah akan perkenankan segala permintaan hambanya. So gunakan peluang itu. Just bangun Tahajjud setiap malam, solat Hajat, Zikir, mengaji dan mintalah dgn sungguh2 pada Nya. Means kita takkan miss malam yg special yg Allah janjikan itu, kalau kita bangun tiap2 mlm kan? Kalau ter miss, atau rasa susah.... buat saja di malam2 ganjil... tp apalah sangat tak tidur 10 mlm, nak dibandingkan dgn rezeki yg Allah akan bagi melalui doa kita itu kan? Kita inginkan zuriat, 10 mlm beribadat tak berat langsung.

Bila Allah makbulkan, dah pregnant...bersyukurlah dgn pelbagai cara. Paling mudah terus sujud syukur...then teruskan lah panjatkan kesyukuran pd Yg Maha Memberi dgn memberi pula kpd yg memerlukan. Share apa yg kita ada... lg pun Allah dah beritahu, apa yg kita own bukan 100% hak kita...so infaq kan.

So itu sahaja utk hari ni...
Semoga apa yg dishare ni, akan membawa kebaikan pd sesiapa yg memerlukan.
Amin.
By the way, sgt excited.... nak balik kampung...my sis dah dpt baby...girl...Humairah dpt geng baru.
See u lil niece Daphena Khalisha!

Yeay! I solved my 1st Sudoku Puzzle!!!

Hahaha.... 30min 35sec... memang lembs teramat.

Kena mkn lebih byk raisins and kurma dari sekarang.

Dah lama dah berminat dgn sudoku, tp selalu halfway.

Sbb malas nak fikir + wrong timing.

Ok, sekarang bermulalah segala cabaran sudoku...

Ultimate Target; 1 minit.

Good Luck babehhhh!!!